God will show you who you are in certain situations.

Today I was having a hard time trying to figure out how people say what kind of Faith the have, but still they treat themselves like dirt on the bottom of a shoe. I just wish that WE cause time to time we all go through that Faith thingy, could just let God do his work , because he lets us do ours. I find myself always trying to fix things, and help people, when they don’t even want  help themselves. God has stopped me from helping others just so that I can see what they can do on their own, and it has shown me to see how none to little Faith looks. I feel like crying, cause the way some of these people say Faith goes……..I hope I never see it that way. People put God in a box and limit him. They expect for him to stay in that box while they * fix* things for themselves. I know, I use to do it too. I still now and then get caught up in *Lacrease* and lose my way……. but when he calms me down, I see the picture so clear.

God has shown me sooooooooo much this weekend, I cried everyday too. When you see God, you see yourself. God will show you who you are in certain situations. I just have to learn to dusk myself off, and not be to connected with people to the point where it affects me mentally toooooo long. God you’re the best. I promise.

Catching up

Hey!

 Where do I start?  This entry will probably be all over the place because of all the things that’s going on inside my head. LOL But try to keep up with me as I go in and out of my life. First of all I have to Thank God for blessing me so much that when I think about everything it, I get overwhelmed……. In a good way. I just wish that everyone knew him, and spend time with him. There are so many things that people go through for nothing…….free. I hear so many people saying how much Faith they have, but at the first chance at proving to themselves….. they throw it all in and declare the loser * the winner*. Getting off that, I just want to say Thank you God for all that you’ve done for me. Thank you for loving me and laughing with me, and for the voice that I hear when you speak to me. Thank you.

Last weekend me and Neisha rented a room so that when the Piston played against the Orlando Magic we can stay the night there and not deal with traffic. We had a good time. We went shopping @ Great Lake Crossing, ate dinner and breakfast @ O Malley’s. We love that place, so peaceful, it’s located inside of the hotel. Did I mention that we had seats so close that it wasnt funny…..we sat 2nd row from the floor near the Detroit Pistons side.There was so much excitement going on during the commercial breaks, seem like the game was over in 12 minutes. Me and Neisha had fun watching Patrick Ewing and Dwight Howard all night * inside*. Wow is all I gotta say. WOW WEEEEE! I rented a car and after 4 days it was time to turn it in and report to work after 5 days. I sure wish that I * had it like that*, I would take a mini vacation once a month for 3 -5 days. The part I hate about going back to work is dealing with those customers who are having a bad day and want yours to end up that way too. But anyway…….. thats a different story.

I have a lot of things planned this year. There was a time when I would ask people to do this, and do that, and they would be like noooo, I don’t have the money, or I can’t do this for this reason, or let’s do it another time. Now, I will rent me a car, hotel room and do my thang. Please I’m not waiting on NOBODY this year. I’m almost 43 and I’m not babysitting folks, not begging them, not hoping they would do this or that, it’s up to them……. im doing LaCrease. I met a wonderful person in Atlanta when I was there 2008. Well actually she saw me in the lobby, came over and said I know you………. you work at the Roseville Walmart in Michigan…… I looked at her, and was like OMGOODNESS yes. We got to talking about Tyler Perry for 5 hours straight! And to this day she is my gurl.  We are planing to move there sometime soon….. if the Lord say the same. I’ve wanted to move to Atlanta since Neisha was about 6-7 years old. Now she’s 23. I think about it everyday. Anyway……. we had decided to go in March. But one day recently I was messing around on Ticketmaster for tickets to Tyler’s first show April 15,  BOSSED UP and got row BBB which are 2nd row from the stage. Now keep in mind Im going crazy at this point, because Im thinking months ago when they went on sale in Nov that Atlanta bought these seats up. I was on the phone with my gurls, and I said to them LOOK YALL I HAVE TICKETMASTER UP AND I GOT 2ND ROW FROM THE STAGE!!! They were like….. lets change our trip from March to April…….. plus that would be cool to see Tyler Perry at home. They were like okay cool. The next day we got our money together, put it in the bank and we back on line and those seats were gone!!! Then the VIRGO kicked in and went for April 15, which is a Friday night. First try we got CCC 3rd row from the stage!!! I had my hand on the BUY THEM TRIGGER and it was a done deal. lol We are excited about that. So excited. They cost a pretty penny, but its worth seeing TP at home, cause I know he is going to NUT UP AT THE FOX!!! Our first mission is to look at homes, apartments, jobs, areas. Were going shopping of course, but mainly business. Oh yeah, we purchased our airline tickets as well. We are ready for this trip.

Then in May I’m taking my mom, Neisha and my 2 nieces Brittney and Ganell to Atlanta. My mom is really excited about going. She’s never been!! She wants to see all I talk about daily. We are going June 24-28. CAnt wait to hit Gladys Knight and Ron Winans restaurant after the play. and with my mom. Were going to visit the Georgia Aquarium, The World of Coke. Excited!!!

I donated $50.00 to Haiti!!! Yep, Im posting this so that someone else can be inspired. Also me and a friend is asking for donations for the Homeless for Valentines Day. WE have towels, socks, hats, soap, tooth paste, deodorant,hand sanitizer, and my boss is making them some brownies!!!! Friends has really stepped up to the plate to donate at this time…. Im just so excited about it. Thanks to all !

I went to the movies today after work to see John Travolta………….. DAYUM HE’S FIONE WITH THAT GOTEE!!! I PROMISED IWATCHED HIM ALL THROUGH IT. LOL Let me stop!!

Well……. Im closing still got lots to talk about…… later…… but I’s getting sleepy. So GOOD NIGHT!

 

Coming up!

Hey,

Can’t beleive Im posting tonight, so much has happened and is going through my mind OMG!!!! People think you don’t know the truth but you do. Wow. Tonight Im going to post some topics that I must touch on this week. I have too. 

Dear, Lord

Dear Lord,

First of all Thank You for a wonderful day. The holiday rush to buy the best gifts for Christmas can really take a toll on me as a cashier. But for that point, Im going to say all cashiers. lol  I do my best to be courtest, and to smile with my customers, but sometimes I fall short. I don’t know why Im so hard on myself in this area. Sometimes I feel that you give me enough strength to smile and laugh with them at all times. Im learning that its okay if I have down times, Im very friendly and do my best to create a great shopping experience for the customer. Lord, sometimes they invade your space and downtime. I just don’t know how to react to people who disrespect my space. If they see me eating in the snack bar, or see me walking and talking on my cell phone, why is it so important that they get their question out to ME anyway? This bothers me to no end. I wish that I knew how to talk to them without letting them know in so many words that Im off the clock, and not to BOTHER ME AT ALL. My facial expressions can/will cure cancer it’s just like that!!! Well, you know. lol I want to be nice and pleasant all the time. I really battle with this at work, people seem to know what button to push. My coworkers are the best, we motive and pray for another. I love that about them.

Tyler Perry play is coming to Detroit @ The Fox in May and I really want to have the best seats in the house. I want to meet Tyler when he comes, thats another thing on my mind. God I know things work according to your will. But you know how bad I want to meet him. You know, and he knows * im sure*. Please let it be this time coming up. He is so funny and so sweet. We are going to have a ball I know. Will I become nervous…….. probably but its all good. I plan to go to at least 2 shows. My gurl Angel and I are going together. Then again with my sisters, daughter, mom and friends. I may do a solo. I love solo’s. Im excited that he’s thought about touring, I really didnt think that he would be out on the road again. He is going to make  a killing at the box office. Im so happy for him. Tyler if youre reading this message, lets meet in May!

Im excited about C&VS Corporation!!! My good friend Val and her husband Cary are in the early stages of opening a Temporary Homeless Shelter for women with 2 children, she has to be between the ages of  22-? oops gotta find out the age limit again. Im so excited for them. Today she came buy to pick up all my bottles for the bottle drive. Also I gave her a donation, but there is more to come!!! She went to school all those years on her way to a Masters Degree and never knew this is where she was going. Look at God. I can wait to help her, this is right up my alley. All day I see people who have money, and who think they are so bigger than the next person, but here are these people who are homeless and need special attention. Ill share more later.

Good Night

Cree

The day before Thanksgiving

Hey, 

 Sorry I havent been writing that much lately. I had a little bit on my mind. The day before Thanksgiving me and my Sister kinda fell out. I love my Sister dearly, and I hate the fact that I got really, really, really upset with her. To the fact where, when it was time for ALL of my family members to come over to my house on Thanksgiving, I left and went to the movies to see 2 shows. I didnt even want to be home when she came over. I never did this before, my parents were really shocked and disappointed with me a little. They did have a good time without me, which is good.

 What happened was the day before when I made dinner for 50 people with my feeding the homeless dinners, my sister was over, and after we had made the plates and were waiting to pass them out, she wanted one of my sectional plates that we had left over for the homeless project. Everyone knows how I feel about things that has been donated to me. I put them up and use them for the next year. All of these things are donated to me, and I want all of it to go to just that. I had plenty of things this year and some were left over, next year I plan to feed 75-100 people .

Well after we had made all 50 plates instead of my sister asking for a plate thats in my cabinet to use she insisted on using one of the donated plates. She was going over to my dad’s house and she needed a plate. I tried explaining to her, I will ACOMMONDATE  you with a plate, but NOT one of the plates that were donated. She didnt want to hear that, she figured that since I didnt use all of them, that she could have one. My issue is this, if I tell you naw boo, Im not going to let you have one of the donated plates because I dont see that its fair to those donated, why not take from the cabinet? Why do we have to argue in front of others who are here helping me? Why? You are my sister you should respect what Im doing and just got another plate. A BETTER ONE AT THAT!!! What really made me angry is I started thinking about all the things that I would go out and by for my gurls group and she would ask for the chips, or the juice and candy I have for them. She looks at it as if I can buy more, and were not going to * miss* what she ate. That just took me over the edge thinking about it. She in my opinion doesnt respect my stuff. She feels that I can replace the stuff, and that I wouldnt miss it. She dont get the whole point. I truly believe that if someone gifted me with $12,000 for my gurls group, and she was facing foreclose she would feel that I should LOAN her the money so that she can keep her house. Thats how she is. But Im not that way. Donated things are donated things. I just dont feel right mismanaged things that Im in charge of. We have talked since this, she came over to get something, but at the same time we havent talked about this. Things will fall in place, it’s just that she needs to respect my things. When she come over she can get anything she wants from me. Dont ask me anything just get it * as far as going in my fridge, and things like that.* My nieces and nephews too, this is their house as well. They already know. Just please pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeee when it comes to my gurls group food, goodies, money, and my homeless people things, DONT ASK ME FOR IT, PERIOD AT ALL. LOL I love my baby Sister with her spolied self! God bless

Well, Im off to bed. Good Night!

Feeding the Homeless for Thanksgiving

Wow, what can I say? This year’s Cree’s Feeding the Homeless for Thanksgiving went so well. It was an amazing day for all of us. We fed 50 people this Thanksgiving and next year its going to be even bigger. So many of my family and friends got involved, they donated food, money, time and their support for my second annual. I can even explain the looks on their faces when we arrived. It get dark here in Detroit about 5ish and we had just missed the day light. They were so happy that we thought of them, and they were so Thankful and grateful. I wish that we had more to give that day, but Im going to take one year at a time.  We drove around downtown Detroit, and it wasnt hard at all to find 50 people. The homeless shelters are over crowded and people were sleeping on the streets. They had lots to eat, drink, and munch on when we were done with them. I wanted to take photos, but it was not the right time to do that. The atmosphere wasnt right at all. I would love to do this at least 2 times a month.

This is my dream to this for them. I have had this on my heart for so many years. People think Im crazy when I say I want  to sleep outside for a night with them, to listen to their stories and testimonies of their life. I rather be around then any day than to deal with the people who have money that come through my line. These homeless people appreciate things, they are grateful. If people can look into my heart and into my mind they would understand why  feel the way I do. Feeding the homeless, working with the young gurls/kids/ and assisting the seniors this IS MY LIFE. I do want to do anything else!!! I love to travel, and fly, and spend time with my self, daughter, friends, family. This is who I am in this life. Helping people. I live good, I eat good, I have money to go shopping and buy nic nacks, my home is nice, I am truly blessed. Im not complete unless Im helping someone else. Giving is the best thing you could ever do. I use to be selfish and people would tell me this all the time. I hated to hear this, but I felt that if I keep giving then I want have anything. That is sooooooooooooooooo not true. I have more, and more to share.

This Christmas, I’m feeding the seniors at my dad’s Senior building. I told him to gather at least 10 people, and Im bringing them all a plate of GOOD FOOD!!!

If I could do it all over again…

Day 2 of 4 days off started off just right. Got up this morning made some Collard greens, pork chops, and corn bread. My favorite dinner ever. I probably can down a whole pot of greens for real. lol  Sitting here in my night-gown looking so wild, but its all good because I am home and Im feeling good about that. 

When Im alone sometimes I like to think about what I would have done differently growing up. I remember always wanting to be a secretary because I love to write, and I had a connection with anything stationary. When Neisha was in preschool I would volunteer at her school for the half day she was in class. Then when she went to Kindergarten the school offered me a job as a noon hour aide. I stayed there until she was in 5th grade. There is where I connected with children. The kids who were *bad* really challenged me to see if I can make them good. lol  Daily it became a job that I loved to hug the children, and talk to them one on one. Some of them needed that attention. They craved it. Then there were some, who you could tell got plenty of love at home. I just loved and adored those children. When they would see me coming into their class to relieve their teacher so that she could go to lunch, they knew we would have fun. First off I learned , I had to be firm but nice. Kids detect a teacher who would let them get away with anything. One day recently while I was working, one of my OLD students ran up to me and started hugging me, CRYING, telling me how much I meant to her while she was growing up. She especially loved my hugs I would give them daily. She said that her and her best friend FELL OUT because they were arguing over who *play mother* I was. lol We both laughed at that. lol I was sooooooo amazed at how much effect I had on her. I never knew that. She has to be about 25 or 26 NOW. She kept telling me how much she loved me. It make me think when I had bad days at work, did she take notice. I wonder how that effected her? Many days the smile on their faces is what got me through. Children bring you joy.

Which brings me to this next topic. When I was pregnant with Neisha, I was so mean and so unhappy to her dad that I didnt get a chance to enjoy being pregnant. I just love when I see photos of couples pregnant and the dad is holding the woman by her stomach.  I believes it strengthens the relationship and it’s sexy!! I wish that I could have enjoyed this kinda bond. I think about it all the time. I can’t wait to see Tyler Perry take a pose like this with his wife. I have several photos in a frame expressing black love. My favorite is Diddy and Kim Porter photo shoot when she was pregnant with the twins. If I could do it all again, I would take photos of me and my husband all day. LOL

Be blessed!

Neck, 2012

Lord, Thank you for a wonderful day!!! 

Hey People! I was working out at the gym and my neck and shoulders have been off the hook for about  3 weeks. What happened was, I woke up with a sore neck that was really bad that I couldnt hardly move it. So, Im like dang whats up with this? I went back after it was feeling much better, not gone, but better. I wanted to get on this abdominal machine, even tho the trainer told us clearly to stay away from this machine. First of all we are just starting out, and that machine wasnt the right one for us yet. So me…… being me………. wanted to get on it any way. I did. The next morning was neck was off the chain hurting!!! I stayed away from the gym again. Then I felt better went back and got on the same machine doing 50 lbs, 50 times!!! Omgggggggg. I was getting my nails done, and I remember the pain came to me. Before I knew it  I said dang….. what am I doing to make my neck sore. I heard God loud and clear……….. he said that machine the trainer told you to stay away from. I just couldnt believe it was that loud and clear. I love God.  When I got home my neck, shoulders, and back was hurting so bad. Its been almost 2 weeks and my neck is just now feeling better. I really really really put a hurting on it, lifting all those weights while sitting down really messed me up. Not listening and doing what I want to do. UGHHHHHHHH.

Yesterday, I bought tickets to see Shaq play the Pistons before he retire. Yeaaaaaaaa, I been wanting to buy them for the longest. Plus I bought tickets to see Dwight Howard and the Orlando Majic!! I paid some $$$$$$$$$$$$ for these babies Whoooooooooo whoooooooooooooooo!! 2nd row from the FLOOR!!!

Tonight we went to see 2010 at the movies. And also I bought my  ADVANCED ticket to see PRECIOUS NOV 22, 2009!

Im off to bed, talk to you all tomorrow. Have something to share.

Cree

From the mind of Lacrease…… for those who can handle it (1)

Today is one of those days where Im quiet trying to figure out where my head is about life. Got up this morning was suppose to go and work out, but me and Neisha went to bed around 5ish lol we were so sleepy. We had a plan. We said that we were going to set our phones @8am, go to the gym get on the treadmill for 30 minutes, then go to the grocery store. Come home and go back to sleep for a few hours. So we slept on the couch to keep from sleeping hard. Dont you know when that phone went off, we looked at each other and went back to sleep. LOL We were sleeeepy!!! I got up about 12, and I havent been back to sleep  yet, but its 1:24 am and Im there!!!

I have a relationship with God that when he speaks to me I know his voice. Lately I have been really peed off by the media and how they really dog out Tyler Perry, Tameka Raymond, and now my Tweeter gurl Shaunie O Neal. It bothers me so bad, people dont know what others are going through. And I know this comes with the success. But why do people have to be so mean, and so into their business. If people take shots at celebrities who they don’t see, just imagine what they do to those who they do see. It’s really a shame and ignorant to Judge people so harshly as they do. Some of the articles Ive read,  I know it has to be sad for God. And you know….. Im guilty myself.

 Yesterday I was so angry at this guy on Twitter that I posted something to him very mean, then I blocked him. Someone else read it and reposted something to me. At that point I knew that I was out-of-order. I made a promise to myself that I wouldnt post anything negative to anyone, just because I don’t like what they’ve said about someone. Im tired I can’t and dont have the time to post to everyone who doesnt see what I see in a Tyler Perry movie, or who constantly diss Tameka Raymond for divorce. I can’t do that any longer. I have so many things in my life that I can spend that time on, and if the post bothers me Im just going to click out of the window no matter how bad I want to post. Im finding myself acting JUST LIKE THEM…….. and thats a NO NO!!! OH NO. I will not behave that way again. Im not proud of some of the things that Ive posted, I can’t take it back, but I can show myself some respect, and self-control by moving on. So thats a what Im going to work on with God’s help. 

Last night I had a dream that the guy who molested me was out of jail, sitting next to me on a bench. I noticed that it was him and I just looked at him. He’s a very dark-skinned man, but he seem lighter this time. He’s always had white teeth, in the dream he kept smiling at me saying… its been a while do you remember back in the day. And I was soooo nervous, I tried to ignore him. But he kept looking at me asking me questions about in the past and smiling just like a sexual predator UGHHHHHHH. I don’t ever had to worry about him because he’s locked up for GOOD!

Then FLASH FORWARD TO REAL LIFE, a long time friend told me that she married  the guy who raped me when I was 17. Yes she MARRIED HIM!!!! MARRIED HIM! MARRIED!  She doesnt know what he did to me. All I need is for him and her to come thru my line one day and I will probaly walk off my shift. He would remeber, but she wont have a clue. Ughhhh the site of him will make me turn purple probaly. He’s locked up  and will be home soon.  VERY SOON SMH

 Can you handle this….. I can’t

Holiday Shopping Rules!!!

Holiday Shopping Rules!!!.